Start again... AGAIN

Im forcing myself to eat less and exercise more! I can't keep gaining weight I just cant :'(

Fucking stupid bitch.

I'm starting a new life starting tomorrow. I'm not going to binge. Im going to focus on exercise, not cutting, work, and exams and hopefully should be happier.

Shaking...

New start

I'm In need of a fresh start. My head is currently fucked and I just need clarity in my life.

Food

Binge binge fucking binge its all I do :( I hate myself why do my binges have to be so fucking big no wonder im fat :(

Stupid bitch

Stupid bitch Stupid bitch Stupid bitch Stupid bitch Stupid bitch Stupid bitch Stupid bitch Stupid bitch. Have you gathered that I am a Stupid bitch yet?

Merh

I'm happy your happy but I'm extremelly jealous of your attention your getting from the boy you like. Makes me feel even uglier and fatter and more inadequate.

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I need to STOP eating so much shit

Idek

I dont even know why I get my hopes up anymore

Feelings

Embarrassed, silly, vulnerable, disheartened, disappointed, idiot, ugly, fat... All of those feelings from one thing!

Wowza

So that was an interesting convo, left me confused though...

:l

I fucking knew this would happen.

I need to fucking purge :(

In the past 2 days I've eaten a tub of ben and jerries :( I'm so fat

Canny sleep

...

Reading previous blogs I sound really desperate, I'm not, I just want to feel loved for once.

Lonely

I'm lonely and I'm fed up of it. I just want to be loved. To have a boy to love and be able to have sex with and kiss and tell my every thought. I'm fed up of feeling ugly and unloved.

Summer

I want a summer romance with a boy.
Who am I kidding I'm an ugly boring fat munter

I need to loose weight! I'm so fat! :(

U P D A T E

so thats is... my exams are all OVER AND DONE WITH! :D
well, for this week anyway.
i have totally failed all of my exams, im just utterly shit :'( waaah
SO IVE COME TO A DECISION;
i'm going to start revising more, eating less and exercising more which will result in loosing weight AND better grades... ye-uh!

EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS

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exams are doing my fucking nut in!i apsolutely cannot wait for the end of june to come so i dont have exams for a few months!
ive done 2 so far out of 8.
got a mock english exam tommorow but i honestly just dont give two about that, so im going to just relax at home ( even though i should be exercising because im a fatso!).

Thin

I want to be thin, I want to be perfect, I want to be dainty, I want to be skinny, I want you to be worried about me, I want to self control back, I want to loose weight. I want to be ILL!

:@

Bitch please you dont know the meaning of depressed

Feeling huge beyond belief.

I'm so fat I need to loose weight but I can't stop eating