im fine

Im fine im fine im fine im fine im fine. . . Oh wait, im tricking myself again, I AINT FUCKING FINE.

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fuck

I hate you bulimia, you're probably going to make me lose my job, you have made me fat, you have made me miserable. Im constantly paranoid about everything. I cannot help others now which means I'll be shit at my job when im older. I feel so worthless, no I AM worthless. I deserve to be locked away from society because im so much of a fucking horrible person the world doesn't need me. I think about cutting every day but I pussy out. Oh and I broke down at work yesterday,
First time I've cried properly in a year :'(

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worrying

I just want to fix you and make you all better but I dont seem to help you at all. ive become attached already to you and im going to get hurt because im not the one you want, you're still in love with her, im just not even second best. I just feel not good enough for anyone (especially not myself) oh and I am so fat compared to you :-(

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fuck

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. That's my only feeling right now.

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im not her

I dont want to be a rebound girl. You're still hung up over her, I won't be able to replace her.

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eurgh

I thought I was fucking desperate but fucking hell, you just go for anyone who gives you attention. You really piss me off sometimes , sorry not sorry

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plan

6 small meals a day
No more binging
Only eat food I bring to work
Try stay on top of homework
Exercise to keep fit ( try get a set routine)
Dont count calories but be aware of them
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WHICH SHOULD EQUAL HAPPINESS!

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