teenage crushes!

why would i even consider a guy like him would even in the slightest have any interest towards me as i do him!
i mean.. i'm fat, have an awful personality, very very ugly, very bitchy, have lots of bagage, have lots of 'beef' between me and his cousin.

and he's gotten a bubbly personality, isn't at all ugly, can be so so loving, is a great friend, and doesn't have ANY baggage whatsoever! i bet he literally has girls crawling after him!

i think i should just totally give up, i've already made a tit of myself enough...