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Your pissing me off, why are you supposedly so sad when you've never even had real shit happen to you. I'm sorry but its annoying me how you don't even tell me whats wrong so I can't help you if anything shit HAS happened.

snake bites

i got my snakebites done :D
even though most people will hate them, idec they can get fucked its my body and seen as though i already hate myself more than you could hate me, then i suppose your opinion is rather invalid.

honestly

honestly i feel so fucking fat and it makes me want to cry
honestly i cannot cry for some abnormal reason and that in itself fucking infuriates me
honestly i eat so fucking much shit that it makes me feel so guilty
honestly i can never stop thinking about what im going to eat next because im greedy
honestly i look in the mirror and all i see are inperfections
honestly i believe i'm ugly
honestly i'm ashamed to be in public because of how vile i am
honestly i feel like i dont even deserve anything i get
honestly i feel like a phoney when it comes to my eating disorder
honestly i am repulsed by my current weight
honestly i feel i've never been skinny
honestly i hate how out of control i am
honestly i think you hate me because of how fat and ugly i look
honestly it infuriates me how obsessive i am
honestly i am not okay, i put on a pretty good mask that i convince myself i'm ok 
honestly i just wish that you could accept all my faults and get to know me because i feel like i need you in my life to help me get past these
honestly i feel so so alone right now and it fucking sucks. 

Was it...

Sympathy, guilt, pity?
Because it can't of been true genuine feelings, it obviously wasn't honest feelings like it was for me.

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Im going to be fucking miserable this summer, the only person I want to confide in about this doesnt want fuck all to do with me.

Ffs

Hayley just stop right now, your a fucking twat, no one wants to be your friend so stop trying to be sociable because no one wants anything to do with you!

Burden

Hayley you're a fucking burden to everyone, it's be better off if you crawled into a cave and just died, NO ONE would miss you.