Utterly shit. Flashback of my past and it felt horrible ( being called emo and that I slit my wrists and wrap chain around my neck). Then eating at school where I dont live up to the expectations of an anorexic because im FAT, especially recently after gaining all this weight. Eating sweets and purging, wasting my mum's money. Wanting to self harm and actually cry which I haven't done since November. Having the pressure of succeeding in my gcse s , which I doubt I will reach my expectations because im fucking lazy and thick. Oh and not even receiving a fucking apology which I fucking well deserve.
Might go and make my mood worse by embarrassing myself and admitting to my mum that im not such an innocent girl.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Let me crawl into this disease and feel secure again, make me feel numb.
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