I'm sorry

I feel so bad and I know I shouldn't but I do.
I forgive too easily, I am attached to you idk why but I just am, my thoughts go to you when I feel sad/alone and want someone to cuddle me to make me feel better. I care a lot about you even though you have made me feel so shit and made me cry and hurt me, but I still care! I don't want you to feel so shit because I've felt it and I know how immensely horrible it is and I wouldn't wish that on anyone - especially not you. I want to help but I know I don't help you, I don't want you to feel like I've given up on you because I haven't I just had to be selfish... I can't handle you blowing hot and cold - I physically can't put myself through that again, wondering what I've done wrong, worrying how to fix it, feeling so guilty and so bad because I didn't know what I'd done wrong.

I really wish that the things that have happened between us didn't happen, I wish I could of made you happy and you could of made me happy. I don't know I just feel full of regret and guilt.

I'll always have a soft spot for you and I genuinely wish you can overcome your demons. I'm so sorry if you feel I've given up on you and abandoned you because I haven't I just had to protect myself.

I'm so sorry, please stay strong.